I wish I had a partner who was accountable, reliable, and most of all just there. Today I've got about 1000 different things going through my head and the beauty of having a best friend who's your partner is knowing they're the ones you can count on to help sort through it all. They're the ones who are going to listen to what's going on in your brain and help you take one thought at a time, not to make you feel stupid or forgettable.
And they certainly can't just ignore you.
I have no clue what I'm doing in my life. All of a sudden it seems so out of control and I'm not sure if it's that it seems that way or if it's because I let it get to this point. Maybe I'm just freaking out unnecessarily.
Either way this is why it comes down to feeling alone, even when I know that I'm not; because the one person I want and really really wish I had next to me... is lost in his own little world, unreachable.
Father, please help me to makes sense of my life. Help be that partner for me. Send me help so that I may know Your will for me. Use me how you see fit and if anything else I ask for Your forgiveness and regulation. In Your precious name, amen.
