Prayer

"Father I'm coming to you this morning with a concerned heart. I'm concerned that Steve is just coasting by. I'm not sure how to respond to him, how to encourage him, how to uplift him. It feels like everything I say, every tired emotion I feel goes into making him feel even worse. I ask so much for your help. I ask for your help for him, to take him under your wing and hold him accountable. I ask for you to help me find words, patience, and most importantly an outlet for my emotions. So much of being his partner is tiring and I find myself depressed with being with him a lot of the times just simply because I feel so helpless around him. Nothing I say ever makes a difference and right or wrong I want to quit most of the time. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't or aren't being a good enough helpmate. Or am I? I have no clue what I'm doing and I need your help. Father, give him what he needs but allow him the attitude to see it. He was changing his faith, answering questions before and perhaps moving from his family wouldn't be a bad thing because it would force him to stand alone, without someone as a buffer, someone to be that crutch for him. Father, help him find his bottom so he'll finally climb back up on his own. I ask, I beg for your help in ways I can't even find words to ask for. Search my own heart to fill the holes and cracks so that I may be strong for him. Father, tack his heart, the walls he's built. In your most precious, heavenly, able name I pray, amen."